It's come to that time when I'm starting my diet, yet again *sigh*...
This time I started it on Sunday, HA! Screw you Monday diet curse. I've had to take a lot of time to do some soul searching to get back on the "diet/better eating lifestyle" horse again, what ever you wanna call it.
A question was posed to me as to why it didn't work last time round. My answer; I realise I have lost belief in myself. Over the years I have allowed people to mentally push my confidence in myself back to the point where, whatever the project, I believe I won't be able to do or complete it. Can you believe that type of thought process, its ludicrous. When I was younger, nothing could stop me, I had motivators up on my room walls reminding me everyday that I'm able to achieve anything I put my mind to, and you know I always...ALWAYS...achieved my goals.
The older I get the wimpier I get, well today I decided it stops. I know I'm good at what I do and I can do anything I put my mind to.
Another reason I don't reach my goals is I believe I don't have time for them, what a joke. I have plenty of time for TV, then what is my problem...what is standing in my way...its not time...I realise its fear of failure. And since when did this creep in, I never failed at anything, and if I did, I made damn sure I didn't fail at it again.
I have given up on myself, and now I'm taking back control. I'm not prepared to hit rock bottom before I realise things need to change. Things need to change now.
So I have enrolled in a weight management group, created a high school style goal board with magazine cut outs and a change in my mind set. Sounds like a good start, a bit kindergartenish, but I must remind myself daily.
Good luck to any readers who are currently walking the same road, we are worth it!